How I took my power back from dealing with Binge Eating Disorder
First off I will say it did not happen over night. It was many months of failing and trying again. I started macro counting (aka flexible dieting) a few years ago. Up until that point, I had tried every diet under the sun - low carb, high fat, Atkins, Paleo, Keto - you name it, I've tried it. But all those diets left me feeling... deprived. Feeling deprived led me to binge eat, and I couldn't get out of that cycle. I would be "really good" and eat clean during the week, but on weekends, I would binge eat. For 10+ years I followed this pattern, until one day I researched macro counting and decided to try it.
Have you heard the phrase, “fake it until you make it?” Even if you’re not totally happy with how your body looks or feels, you have to start acting like you LOVE it. Try it! With enough practice you will! To get started, I made a list of things that make me feel good– things that didn’t have anything to do with food. My list contained things like lifting weights, a hot bath, sitting in a sauna, going for a walk outdoors, or even taking a nap! Then I tried to practice one or more of those things on a daily basis.
I’ve found that the more I take care of myself, the more I want to keep it up. It’s momentum building! (Come to find out, taking a walk outside makes me feel better than eating a whole sleeve of cookies! Who knew ☺️).
ALSO I stopped labeling foods as “good” or “bad.” Food is just food!
This one is tricky, because I truly do believe that some foods are better and more nutritious than others. I absolutely think we should primarily focus on eating real, whole foods as much as possible, and I do think that processed foods should be minimized. However, for the sake of my mental health, I don’t feel guilty about moments when I wanted to eat french fries, pizza, or a real donut! It means I am human! It really is okay to eat these things every now and then, and when I don’t feel guilty about it, I go right back to eating salads, smoothies, and healthy dinners and usually appreciating how good they make me feel even more! It’s a win, win!
I fell in love with macro counting. Macro counting took away the feeling of being deprived. Macro counting took away anxiety and guilt around eating the "wrong" food. Macro counting has helped me progress mentally and physically. Now when I'm at my son's birthday, I have that piece of cake (without eating the whole thing).
This is the only way of eating that has helped me live in the moment and be a better wife and mother. Macro counting has taught me so much that I'm OK just being me, and I shouldn't feel guilty because I'm enjoying a piece of pizza with my daughter. I want you to know you can get the body you want while counting macros and feeling sane. Counting macros, however, is only PART of the process of transforming your body. That’s why the programs, coaching and supplements we create at iHeart Macros combine macro counting, workouts, and the supplements you need to stay healthy!
Listen to more about how I got started with macro counting on my interview with the Key Nutrition Podcast.
There are years between these pictures. I was sure I would live in darkness forever in the first picture. It wasn’t forever ... but it was another 7 years or so, that I would deal with my binge eating disorder and anxiety. It was lonely, scary and dark. But I chose to sprout, to grow and eventually live in the wide openness that had been there the whole time. It took baby steps and a lot of patience and self love but it did happen. And it can and will happen for you too! PLEASE ... Continue to know you’re enough. Continue to fight back. Continue to get up and be seen. Continue to accept your imperfections, for this brings freedom into your life. Continue to love you for you.